Monday, January 30, 2012

I Think I May Cry

I may or may not be sitting here trying to hold back tears and stifle the sniffs so that David doesn't roll his eyes and say "Kelly, it's still 7 months away." Sentimental...and scared to death to send my first born out into the world of Kindergarten. Here's how I already feel so I know come August it will be really really hard:

Friday, January 27, 2012

January Almost Over...ALREADY?!?

Where has this month gone? I cannot believe that it is almost February which means it is almost time for David's birthday, our trip to Orlando (sans kids for our CFA Seminar), a celebratory "3 year survivor dinner", and the extra day in our year this wonderful Leap Year. It also means I only have 5 months to complete the first draft of my book and decide which direction of publishing I am going to go with.
Anways, a few nights ago we had a SCARY night of horrible weather, tornado warnings, sirens going off and telling us to get to our "safe place", and crazy amounts of rain and lightening. It was creepy to have this happen in January, but even creepier is that it happened on the 13th anniversary of the tornado that demolished our downtown. People were certainly on edge around here. As for the Blevins, we tuned in to the local weather station, gathered up flashlights, set our weather radio to the right channel, and got on know, just in case everything ELSE failed, someone would certainly give the play by play on facebook. I guess it is good for something. Oh, and I bribed the kids into cleaning up the play room which is downstairs just in case the tornado came close...all their toys would be organized and "safe." I know...horrible mom but hey, it worked. And then, around  midnight, the sirens sounded and this is what we did...

This was taken in the downstairs bathroom on my cell phone hence the poor quality. However, it's Chloe and Brody sleeping on their bean bags and under blankets in the bathtub. Safest place to be, right?!? And I had cushions and pillows on the floor to rest on and throw on top of them in the case of a tornado ripping through our house. EEEK!
Anyways, we survived, all of our friends were fine and the next day the only thing any of us suffered from was lack of sleep. Thank you Lord for your protection. Oh, and Brody did tell me that God could make the storm go away if we prayed and asked. LOVE that boy of mine!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Per Recommendation...

I have just downloaded a book to my beloved Kindle Fire (yes, I love it enough to call it beloved and I may even give it a name). Anyways, given yesterday's post, I decided to do some of my own research and have decided to start here:

My SIL recommended this book upon reading it herself and says that it is really a great read. I am excited to start reading it, taking notes, writing down questions, and uncovering answers. I will report back with any new info that I gather from this and will certainly let you in on any changes that we make with Chloe's diet and the effects they have.
Stay tuned...

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Frustrated Beyond Belief

So today was a big day for us. We FINALLY got Chloe into a pediatric allergist after waiting 2 months (well, actually almost 5 years if I get technical). I went expecting some testing to be done and my questions to be answered, and a plan of action for my sweet Chloe. Instead, this is what I got:
1. I'm not convinced it's allergies
2. It may be that her immune system is just not responding properly and she will need further testing (ie blood draws and possible appointments with immunology)
3. I'm not convinced it's asthma
4. Sign some forms and we will get copies of all of her past chest x-rays and previous allergy testing and then we will see her back.

Can we say OH MY GOODNESS?!?!?! WTH?!?!?!? I left more frustrated and angry than you can imagine. Don't get me wrong. I absolutely want nothing more than for my child to have NOTHING wrong with her respiratory system, but this makes NO sense to me.
Here is her history:
1. hospitalized with bronchiolitis at 4 months old. On oxygen.
2. hospitalized with pneumonia at 3 years old. On oxygen for 5 days.
3. In between those hospitalizations, has had 3-4 sinus infections, and has been diagnosed with pneumonia at least 6-7 times.
4. Has required oral steroids at least 6-8 times in her life (waaaay too many)
5. Has been on daily maintenance asthma medication for over 2 years and STILL has asthma exacerbations.
6. Has been on allergy medication since she was 6 months old
7. Currently is on 3 daily meds for her allergies and asthma and also has a rescue inhaler for when she starts wheezing despite her meds
8. The inside of her nose is gray instead of the beefy red it's supposed to be and she has dark circles under her eyes and always has which are CLASSIC signs of allergies

There HAS to be a reason that my child has all of the respiratory issues. There has to be an answer. But for now I have to do more waiting. I HATE waiting. I know that there are lessons in the waiting periods of life, but when it comes to my baby's health, waiting is so not cool. I want to know what is going on and I wanted to know at our 2:00 appointment today. Instead, I'm left feeling like this:
1. Have I been medicating my child her whole life for no real reason?!?
2. Why are the meds seemingly making her better in between flare-ups or are they not really working hence the frequent flare-ups of respiratory illnesses?
3. What are we going to do if it's not allergies or asthma? Let her suffer with this the rest of her life? It's absolutely horrible to watch your child working hard to breath, using all of the stomach muscles and sucking in at the ribs just to get a breath. It's hard watching them cough so hard that they vomit on occasion. It sucks! I would trade places with her in an instant if I could. She deserves better.
4. What in the heck could possibly be wrong with her immune system if her issue is indeed not allergies or asthma? Today the doctor was talking about it and in my head I immediately went back to my days as a Peds nurse taking care of the little ones with cancer. HORRIBLE thought, I know! But when you hear immune system not working right, and there has been so much "cancer" in our lives, I think it's normal to "go there".

Please just pray for my girl. And while you are at it, pray for Brody too as he is starting this path with what they are assuming is allergies and reactive airway disease...

can you see those dark circles?!? They are always there...

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Book Ratings - Kelly Style

So, I LOVE to read. I read anything and everything (almost) that I can get my hands on. Bookstores are like a second home to me, although my Kindle has drastically decreased the amount of time I actually spend at the bookstore now. (Side note: i am absolutely in LOVE with my Kindle Fire). I get several magazine subscriptions which are great for when I take those hot baths a few times per week. I also get new books for Chloe and Brody often and they also love reading/being read to. You get the point...reading is an essential part of my life. So, you may ask, what do I have on my Kindle right now? I'd be glad to share it with you and also let you in on my personal book rating system. It's nothing professional, but certainly worth looking at :) Enjoy...
Have Read and Rated:
1. Beautiful Outlaw - John Eldridge - 4 Stars
2. Grace for the Good Girl - Emily Freeman - 5 Stars
3. Not A Fan - Kyle Idleman - 5 Stars
4. The Shack - WM. Paul Young - 5 Stars (have read this one twice)
5. One For the Money (the first 2 in the series) - Janet Evanovich - 3 stars
6. Decision Points - George W Bush - 4 Stars
7. The Help - Kathryn Stockett - 4 Stars
8. Hunger Games Trilogy - Suzanne Collins - 5 Stars (will read again before movie in March)
9. Imperfect Justice - Casey Anthony Trial - Jeff Ashton - 3 Stars
10. Sun Stand Still - Steven Furtick - 5 Stars

Reading Now or Getting Ready To Read (trying to get more fiction in this year)
1. Three To Get Deadly - Janet Evanovich (would love to get through whole series)
2. The Non-Runner's Marathon Guide for Women - Dawn Dais
3. Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close - Jonathan Safran Foer
4. The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo - Stieg Larsson
5. Jesus + Nothing = Everything - Tullian Tchividjian
6. Through My Eyes - Tim Tebow
7. Feminine Appeal - Carolyn Mahaney

My Goal is to Read 25 books this year alone so I have quite a ways to go in expanding my list of currently reading or going to read. If you have any suggestions, leave a comment and feel free to rate your recommendation based on my system :)

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Tagged...I'm It!

I've been tagged! I admit, I kinda like tags because you get to share some fun things about yourself that others wouldn't ever know, AND you get to learn tons of new things about other people. So, at the end of this post, if I tag you, play along and let me learn some new things about you! Here we go...

{The Rules}
1. You must post the rules.

2. Post eleven fun facts about yourself on the blog post.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and then create eleven new questions to ask the people you've tagged.
4. Tag eleven people and link them on your post
5. Let them know you've tagged them!

{11 facts about Kelly}
1. I am left-handed...none of my siblings are, neither of my parents are, and neither of my children are. I'm the lone "south-paw." 
left handed scissors...

2. I am counting down the days until The Hunger Games comes to the theater. I read the whole trilogy in a span of about two weeks which says a lot since I have two pre-school age children at home with me all day every day. No worries, I still found time to feed and bathe them :)

3. I LOVE talk radio and could not tell you one current song on the radio now because of that.

4. I take piano lessons every Tuesday. I took lessons and played for 8 years in my childhood and decided to get back into it last year. Lots of things have changed in the past 18 years but I am learning SO much more.

5. I moved to Ohio in 2003 on a traveling nurse assignment and met my husband at church during the first week I lived there. We got engaged 6 months after our first date and got married a year after the engagement. We've been married 7.5 years to date!

6. My son Brody who is 3 years old comes into our bed every night around 2:00 AM and crawls in to cuddle up with me. He is "mommy's baby!" And I secretly LOVE it!

7. I hope this one isn't one that people don't know about me, but I love Jesus and make it my life's goal to be a true follower of Him, not just a fan! (read the book called Not A Fan!)

8. I sleep in my contacts at least 4 nights/week...and they are only daily wears.

9. I got a stuffed puffalump pig when I was 8 years old and slept with it every night for 25 years...until it basically disintegrated. Poor piggy!

10. I grew up in North Carolina where I lived very close to all of my family. And now the closest family I have are my in-laws who live 4 hours away in Georgia and the furthest is my brother and his family who are a VERY long flight away in Washington.

11. Next month is three years since I had my first mastectomy to remove the Stage 3 aggressive breast cancer...which means next month I am a three year survivor...which means in 2 years I will be considered CURED!

{My questions for you!}

1. Favorite Blog you follow? My favorite blog to follow is my sister-in-law's blog...Life's A Dance
2. Favorite Pandora radio station? Even though my pic up there shows Pandora, I don't actually listen to it...I'm all about 99.7 and 88.3.
3. Last thing you ate? Sugar Free Chocolate Pudding
4. Last thing you bought? gas
5. Favorite date spot? The Melting Pot 
6. Pets?  Do you have any?  If so, what are they? We have a 7 year old cocker spaniel named Cabot.
7. Favorite book you have read? Oooh, OK, I have to break this down into categories. Fiction: Hunger Games (the whole trilogy). Nonfiction: Not A Fan.
8. Favorite kid friendly apps {if this applies} or favorite app in general? Kid-Friendly: Scribble Naughts. Mine: Words With Friends
9. Who is your favorite actor / actress?  Why? Patrick Dempsey (McDreamy on Grey's Anatomy) for the sole reason that he is quite hot! Really...I can be THAT shallow. At least I am honest though, right?!?
10. Favorite baby names? boy & girl... Well, besides the obvious Chloe and Brody, my 2 next favorites, and ones to be chosen if we have more children, are Jack and Molly
11. Favorite Sunday afternoon activity? sitting in the big comfy chair and vegging out with my Kindle

OK, and now my questions for those who I am tagging are:
1. Chocolate or Vanilla?
2. What is your profession and is it what you always wanted to do?
3. Where is your dream vacation locale?
4. Favorite food/recipe...and feel free to share the recipe!
5. Favorite Scripture or quote?
6. First thing that comes to mind when you hear the word "diet."
7. Do you have a bucket list? If so, what's 1 thing on it?
8. What is your favorite color?
9. Last movie that you saw?
10. One pet peeve you have is...?
11. One thing that makes you smile is...?

And now...the list of those I am tagging. Wait for it. Wait for it...
2. Amy
3. Kristi
5. Emily
and...that's it for me. I am breaking the rules by only tagging 5 people and not 11 (that's a lot!) Rebellious, I know! 

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Now that She Is FIVE...

So apparently being FIVE changes everything! Chloe no longer NEEDS me for everything, nor much of anything, because she is "so grown" in her own mind. I mean, being able to hold up a whole hand and say "5" when you are asked how old you are is a big deal, but hardly grown per say.
One thing that has changed a bit now is that when she and her BFF Hannah get together to play now, it's no longer a technical play-date. I drop Chloe off at Hannah's house for a few hours, or Aimee drops Hannah at our house. It's good though because the girls get along great and completely love to be together. They actually met 3 years ago at Parent's Day Out and have been in the same class there for 3 years now, they are in the same class at church, gymnastics, and played on the same soccer team last fall. They are 2 little peas in a pod. And Chloe tells me that they have already planned to be cheerleaders in Kindergarten for Hilldale Hoops so I guess that's what they will be doing...hmmm, wonder if Aimee has been informed of this yet :)
Anyways, over Christmas break Chloe was going through some Hannah withdrawals so we had her over to play one day. They were so good! They played everything under the sun and even let Brody join in for a little while. Then a few days later Aimee told me that Hannah was complaining about being bored and wanted to have Chloe over or come back to our house. I am really hoping that she and Hannah remain good friends and are in the same Kindergarten class in the fall. I like knowing her parents. I like that they love Jesus and are instilling Christian teaching into their children. And I feel 100% comfortable with Chloe going to her house. I really do think we are on the same page when it comes to raising our kids.
Anyways, I snapped a picture of the girls with Brody that I couldn't resist sharing.

Friday, January 13, 2012

FIRST SNOW!! 1/12/12

It snowed for the first time this year...well really the first time this winter! The kids were ecstatic, I was happy and David was okay. He's thinking it may mean a lull in business, and I am just thinking that I hope we still have our MOPS meeting tomorrow. I HEART MOPS!!!
Anyways, I did get some cute pics of the kids playing on the deck after PDO was the only place with even a tiny bit of accumulation.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Mothering Truths...

Here are some humorous signs I have seen lately about mother-hood. Some may seem harsh but if we are all honest, we have all thought them...maybe not verbalized them, but though them nonetheless.... true!

and a wife...haha!


2012 So Far...

So far, so good. 2012 is going to be a great year for Team Blevins...if not naturally, then we will still choose to find the good in every single day. That is something that I am working on with our kids. Each night we talk about our 3 favorite parts of the day and then our 3 least favorite parts. I love how this opens communication even at the pre-school ages and allows them to reflect on their day. I love the saying, "Every day may not be good, but there is good in every day." I think I may adopt that as the new Team Blevins motto.
So, this year the big thing that is going to happen for our family is that Chloe will start Kindergarten. It's hard for me to type those words, much less even think about walking her in to school that first week. Wow! I don't know how all the other moms in the past have done it, but I get teary eyed just thinking about sending her off into the world...especially a world where there are lots of other kids whose parents I don't know, who may have been raised with different values, and who may just be down right mean. I can hardly bear to think about my Chloe ever having her feelings hurt by another child although I know it won't be the end of the world. I just love her so so much and want to protect her from every single hurt that may come her way. I've had 5 short (sometimes long) years with her here at home with me and I feel blessed! When she was just a few months old, I was praying and asking the Lord if I was really meant to be a stay-at-home-mom and immediately I could feel in my spirit him telling me that I have 5 years to shape and mold her into the little lady that he wants her to be and that my only job in those 5 years was to be the best mom that I could be. I hope I haven't failed him or her.
I have debated on sending her to a private Christian school, the Clarksville Academy, and homeschooling. I've prayed about what to do and I just don't think that any of those are the answer. I've talked with our pastor's wife about it and she has reminded me that Chloe is a light of Jesus. That she is going to be a light in a dark place and she may be the only light that a lot of those kids see. When I think of it like that, I love it! I love the thought of Chloe radiating Jesus in the public school system. So, in my soul, I am at peace with sending her to the new elementary school that is just down the road from our house and is being built right now. I'm hoping her two best friends, Kirk and Hannah, will be in her class, but if not, I'm praying that she makes new friends really fast.
Oh geesh, and here I go getting teary eyed thinking about her at "big girl school" not knowing anyone in her class and being scared. I have to stop those thoughts though because Chloe has never had an issue meeting new friends and going new places. As a matter of fact, she has recently told me that I cannot come have lunch with her at big school unless she invites me to. She has also told me that she can walk into her class by herself because she does it now at pre-K, and she has begged and begged to ride the darn bus to school which I have told her NO repeatedly. We finally compromised and I told her that she could ride the bus on field trips :) She was fine with that.
So, that is the big thing going on in 2012 for us... along with some traveling plans in the works for this year!